Orkut???

What a strange name, and everyone seems to be too excited about it... So, after infinite number of people asking me if i am a member of this WhateverItIsSupposedToBe, and when i had created a gmail account for an alternate purpose, i thought of trying my hands on it, and actually spent the last 30 minutes browsing through people's networks(I wonder why?), and adding them. Now let me explain what just happened... I clicked on peoples' profiles, and clicked on 'add as a friend', and it seemed to me that they would be added somewhere in the profile i had created, but not a single one was added when i came back there... Now whoever wants to 'add' me, my user id is '@.shwet@.@'... Thats all i know. Find me if you can. I had resisted from creating this account because of the kind of obsession that people have developed with it, and my inability to understand what fun is it to let every one know what you were talking about to anyone at all; still wonder why the hell i spent my 30 mins doing this thing... may be i'll understand someday.... Meanwhile... i'll write about something better...

Am i useless or am i USELESS??

I think i'm more or less UsELeSS. Trying to find a solution to something for the past few days... Searching and reading all over the net... what else is this organization and its clients paying me for? But i wonder if i'll ever be able to find decent solutions to such things... 'How to perform a remote and silent installation of an application on all clients in a network... through coding'. I do very well know that they exist, but finding them and executing them, making it work the way its required to, is what i doubt myself for. And it doesn't help that my new PM told one of my colleagues confidently that 'shweta kar legi'. I wonder why she had to give me this little piece of information which should probably please me but rather scares me... How do people rely on such self-doubting individuals such as me?? Just waiting for the day when people like me will be weeded out... or is this industry actually badly dependent on employees such as me? okay, its not about this problem... i have found certain things that i'm going to experiment on today... and it might just work out, or it might not, and i'll look for something else; but i had never thought i'll find myself so useless, on so many occasions. The things i can lay my hands on and learn here are countless... but where will all this take me?? i'll still have to learn more for something else i'm required to do. Now is that good/bad/GOOD or BAD?? I know i'll have a divided opinion on that one by my friends depending on the simple distinction that after one year of college do they like working in IT or they don't. But whats my take? Am i confused or am i CONFUSED??